Saturday
20Mar2010
Win a FurReal on MomSpace TV!
Saturday, March 20, 2010 at 9:00AM Hopefully I can steal this from my kid.... and give it to you!
Then I just have to go out and buy one, I tell ya!
Saturday, March 20, 2010 at 9:00AM Thursday
18Mar2010
California Knows How to Party
Thursday, March 18, 2010 at 8:51PM In the City-City of Compton!! Keep me rockin!
OMGosh. I'm too old to be singing TUPAC!!!
Anyway... Here is a cute and fun little video from our trip.
I dream daily of Palm Trees and Sunshine...
Wednesday
17Mar2010
Cool Easter Craft Ideas!
Wednesday, March 17, 2010 at 10:24PM Here's a replay from my own crafted Better Philly segment from last year...
Happy Crafting!
Wednesday
17Mar2010
Puppy sIt!!
Wednesday, March 17, 2010 at 6:36PM Oh my gosh. Boston cracked me up yesterday when we picked Boston up... he's got such a silly personality.
And his Momma is crude. hahha
Wednesday
17Mar2010
Two Philly MOMpreneurs!
Wednesday, March 17, 2010 at 11:35AM I did this segment in one of my favorite local towns; Wayne, Pa.... the moms were awesome!
They were such a fun time!
Tuesday
16Mar2010
Back from Beauty...
Tuesday, March 16, 2010 at 12:14PM We just got back from California. It was so beautiful there. I bet I took 10,000 pics. I asked DHubby if we could move there. He of course said no. His not a fan of the 'people'.
Yeah.. a bit pretentious...but I REALLY think I could get over that. How could you hate something when the sun shines EVERYDAY and palm trees sway outside your windows??
I think thats my deal. I've got the winter blues.
Even though today the sun is shining brightly... I'm blah again.
I look out the window and see bare trees... no palm tree or gorgeous flowers.
COME ON SPRING!! I NEED YOU!!
Ok.. I have about a zillion things I have to do..and it's already noon.
So-heres a pic from the wedding.... more will come soon!
My poor shortie hubby. I should have worn flats.
Thursday
11Mar2010
Does history really repeat itself?
Thursday, March 11, 2010 at 8:34AM I really shouldn't write about this. But this tiny little blog is my therapy sometimes. (And for $20 a month it's a heck of a lot cheaper! hahah)
If you know me... and have read my blogs in the past... you know - I was a bit psycho last year.
Well.. maybe psycho is a little harsh.. how about depressed. BIG TIME.
As I sit here...next to the cutest little boy in the world... I have to say it out loud.
I AM NOT GOING TO LET HISTORY REPEAT ITSELF.
No... I'm not depressed. I have been off meds and in a happier place since December. (I stopped taking antidepressants because a woman I work with ((who is a doctor)) told me some scary info and I was DONE with that!! She said I could have seizures... and the thought of having a seizure driving with my kid in the back scared the hell out of me.)
I figure...if no one else can make me happy... then drugs won't.. I have to make MYSELF happy.
Anyway... my husband said something to me last night that really brought up some awful and ugly memories of when I was so sad. Why did he have to do that? Why couldn't he just assume that I am better. That there was no longer an issue. Does he think that history will repeat itself? Does he think that ugly animal might come out and rev its evil head?
I didn't say anything to him at the time... I just went to take a bath. And to bed. (I have a serious addiction to my bath tub. It's therapeutic like my blog.)
Then this morning.... I started thinking about things...and yet... that ugly animal started to awaken.
And the tears just rocked my pillowcase.
So I sent him a mean email.
Then the phone rang. And the beast came out.
A lovely argument happened... and I said some things that weren't really thought out.
And then we hung up.
Ugly.
Mad.
Mean.
That's the problem. I have a horrible way of letting something build up and bother me...to the point I start dragging all the issues that have bothered me into the picture. Instead of just saying things when they bother me and gettttttttttt over it.
But why did he have to bring that up last night? Now going into a trip for a wedding... I already have that 'loser' stamp on my forehead. Because of what he said it's affected the next 4 days. Puts me on eggshells.
But oh so lucky me. I packed my mom cardigan and hairbows and I can be June Cleaver with the best of them.
On the outside.
But on the inside...history will not repeat itself.
And June Cleaver could be a bitch too if she had to.
Gotta go. Laundry is beckoning.
Wednesday
10Mar2010
Layla Grace
Wednesday, March 10, 2010 at 6:08PM Wow.
I have had two days of awesome experiences...and yet. now.. the tears just keep flowing.
So a sadly short time back... I wrote about a beautiful girl named Layla.
I don't know her.
I don't know her family.
Yet.. she has touched my heart..
I literally just wrote about her. Barely days ago.
She has gone to play with the angels...
I just can't imagine. Nor do I want to.
I'm holding my best friend... so tight.. that if I loosen up..he may run away.
God is Almighty. I am the biggest believer that everything happens for a reason...
Yet... I just can't place for reason for this. Well..maybe I can.
Cause a random person like me.. is feeling a Mom's Heavy Heart.
Bless you sweet Layla Grace.
Tuesday
09Mar2010
MomSpace TV debut tonite!!
Tuesday, March 9, 2010 at 5:04PM Ok.. so as I'm freaking out because my house is a disaster-I am ONCE again reminded of how I have MAJOR issues with PROCRASTINATION!!
MomSpace TV debuts tonite 
I'm excited cause I get to be creative again! But.. I'm soooo behind on so much stuff before going to LA this weekend. OMGosh. How do moms REALLY make things happen in their days????
Not to mention-this little baby-MY blog has been neglected.
Whoa. Sidetracked. Watching new Yo Gabba Gabba with "B" and Sarah Silverman is on doing the Dancy Dance. GABBA IS GOING BIG TIME!
**back to earth......
So tomorrow morning I am having a few MomSpace Mom Bloggers at my house to do a shoot.
Great YES! My house??? NOT SO GREAT! OMGOSH. We just had the cleaning lady here on Friday and it looks like hell again. Argh.
Ok-Check out MomSpace TV link in the upper right here and find out what tonite's show is all about.
I hope I can get more than 3 viewers. And if so.. Awww well.
Thursday
04Mar2010
My poor Bubba.
Thursday, March 4, 2010 at 7:55PM Boston has been a Mr. Whiney Butt for a couple nights.. keeping me up ALL night (as his dad snores with one eye open so he can play mr. asleep when "B" wails...)
Anyway. Today was kind of a rough day.
Didn't get any work done... my poor guy has pink eye.
We went to the bookstore for story time... played with the 'choo choo' there..
He was so good! I said 'it's time to go. Put the choo choo's back so other boys and girls can play with them.'
And he did... then followed me out the store.
He's getting to be such a big boy. I carried him out of the store and he said 'Walk Mama'. So I let him walk.. holding my hand in the street of course.
There are some days that I really wish I could go back in time.
I wish I could go back to the days when I was bitter and unhappy because I had to give up my career for him.
I wish I could go back so i could slap myself.
Hard.
I know.. it was part of the healing process of what was going on in my life... but I really wish I would have embraced him more. I was jealous of him. I thought everything I worked towards in my life.. was gone because of him..when really it wasn't. it wasn't his fault. He just wanted his momma to be happy. To not cry anymore. He depended on me.
I wish I would have looked at him knowing what I know now.
He grows up so fast. And I'll never get this time with him again.
I love my sweet 'B'. He's so good to his Mama.
Tonite after his bath, I put him in his crib with all his 'friends'. One of his friends says the 'Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep' prayer... and at the end when it said "Amen".. Boston said "Amen".
Then looked at me and said "Mama?" I said the usual "Yes dear." He pointed to his face and said "Eye".
I love you too Baby.... Sweet Dreams.
And today was a day that I stopped.. and embraced my little man.
