I am in my last week of the diet program-and then get to get back in the exercise side of it.

GOOD news is-I'm down 17.8 lbs!

Bad news is-I'm scared to death to ever put anything with sugar or carbs in my mouth! lol

I guess that's not so much bad news... but truth in fact that I am totally looking at food differently!

It was late-and I was fammished .. but now this Mama's a Rockin' so don't come a Nockin'!

 I had a couple not cool days-but now the scale is listening... I'm down 10.4 lbs so far.. woohoo!

Video Blog = Joey's too lazy to type.

Ok.. So here I am-

SKINNIER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not going to ginx myself. 

BUT I'M DOWN 7.8 LBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Once again-no ginxing.  (I know I'm spelling that word wrong-but too lazy to look it up, k?)

I didn't check in yesterday.. but when I woke-scale was down 1.2 lbs

Then this morning- down .6lbs!!

EVEN AFTER A SNOW STORM PEOPLE!!  I did NOT cheat ONE TIME.  And I feel sooo empowered by it.

So... Here I am. Going into the weekend.  GULP.

But you know what... This is only day 8... Imagine when I'm on day 30! 

I know. I know. Your husband is going to think I am a HARD CORE HOT MOM.

Don't worry though.. Seriously.  Cause my hubby is cuter than yours.  Sowwy.

hahaha.

I can even tell my attitude.  My personality. My mentality is changing.

Cheers to a GREAT day.

 UPDATE:  MUST TELL YOU-My designer Joe's Jeans that I spent all my $$ on in Chicago are now hanging from my bathroom mirror.

Please Oh Lord, I promise to be really really good.... if you can just let me where those jeans again? 

Pretty-Pretty-Please??????

DAY 3:  SAME

DAY 4: -3.8

DAY 5: -2.8

DAY 6: +.6

Yeah.  Me and my big mouth!

So.. today is a SERIOUS snow day.  What do you normally do in the winter?

EAT MAC-N-CHEESE; FRENCH TOAST; HOT THICK CHUNKY SOUPS!!

And here I am.  Eating cabbage soup with 3.5 oz of shrimp.

Bleh.

So here is what I'm going to do-to continue on this 30 day Body Renewal.

I'm going to tell you my daily weigh in.  What I ate. And just share my feelings.

I google my diet DAILY and read other blogs..and they seem so inspired and on track by sharing their journey.

I'm resetting my metabolism.  I'm changing the way I and my body look at food.

And it's never fun to go on a trip by yourself, ya know?

So here's the deal:

AT THE END I'll share these NASTY before pics and measurements.....

But for now-i gotta eat. 

lol

I started to on Twitter. But-I got REALLY annoyed with everyone's OPINION.

We are all entitled to them.... so I can dig it.

Anyway- Great news!

This is day 5 of the diet-and I'm down 6.6 lbs!!  VERY exciting for me... granted.  I have 40 more to go... but it's a great start!

I know. You're saying "OMG-that's UNHEALTHY".  Here's what I got to tell you.

I know.  I'm not stupid.  I've yo yo'd my entire life.  I was 180 lbs in 5th grade for crying out loud. 

I get it.

But I DO KNOW what I'm doing..and what I HAVE to do to make it LONG TERM.  Yes. that's the goal... not just a 'quick fix'....

So.. just do me a BIG favor.... and just be excited with me.

Don't judge and patronize me.  I know how to do it.

I did it in 2000 and kept it off for 7 yrs... It was hell.. but I did it.

I just need a jump start-And this is PRESCRIBED by my MEDICAL DOCTOR.

=)  Cheers...

**No Food Tastes as Good as SKINNY Feels**

Except I haven't post my struggles on here... oh... in a month.

I thought about deleting the entire section. 

But then it would be a #fail.

I thought about starting an anonymous blog.

But then I would be a #coward.

So. 

I'm going to start fresh.

Here. Now.

At the end of this process-I may tell you what it is that I'm doing.

But for now.... I'm just going to put my daily posts.

Starting with today.

Day 2: loading

-- Yesterday and today are a FAT KIDS dream.  Yes.  I said it.

If you know what I'm doing-you know what I did.....

And in the process of doing.

And I don't feel guilty about it.

ice cream, pizza, pretzels, cheese, lasagna, ice cream, chocolate milk, ice cream.

Yep. 

Starting tomorrow:

-- 3 1/2 oz beef, fish or chicken

-- 3 1/2 oz veggies

**only tea-water-coffee

This process continues for 30 days.  Meaning: March 7th- I move onto Phase 3.

I heard about this from a woman I know.... then started investigating-and then decided - count me in.

I mean, after all-I've tried EVERY diet UNDER the SUN and then some.

Why not reset my metabolism?

I guess I am a coward-cause I'm not going to give my current weight-but I will tell you my daily weight loss.

Call it an experiment......

Just keep your fingers crossed... that I'm not the one with the placebo!

#operationSkinnyButt

Bite your tongue. 

I haven't given up yet.

One Fit Mama Challenge is something I did last year..... and I loved it.

Although, not cause I got my SkinnyButt back... but because I made close friends.

2 in particular.

Both whom I haven't seen in months.

One just had a baby...and the other has an opposite schedule.

Gonna eat a fruit cup now.

I know. I am a fruit cup.

This time. Is the real deal.

I have every opportunity to take back my health.

And damnit I better get there.

For two years, I've had this 'poor me' pitty party.

That is no longer apart of my world.

In 2000 when I lost all that damn weight-did I have a poor me attitude?

Nope.

I said shut up, you've been a fat bitch for too long.  Get off that damn couch.

I'll never forget that feeling.

The feeling I felt.

The place where I went to college had a 2 mile block around school.  Each side was 1/2 mile long.

I'll never forget that feeling.

I started out... walking 1/2 mile.  Jalking (jog/walking-ie. SLOW job) 1/2 -- walk 1/2 -- jalk 1/2

I'll never forget that feeling.

The day I finally was about to job the entire 2 miles. 

I ended right in my front yard.

I dropped down on my knees in my yard... and burried my eyes in the leaves. (It was fall.)

I cried so hard that day.

I did it.

I knew I could do it.

I made no excuses.

And damnit.

I did it.

I'll never forget that feeling.

__________________________________________

It wasn't that I FLAKED after my last post.

I did reach out.

And I do have this really amazing story I will and can't wait to share with you!

Traveling and having family in has made it hard. 

I have returned to working out... but I KNOW that isn't the ONLY change that will make the fat disappear.  I have to work out MORE than 2times a week-and not eat S*IT!!!!

____________________________________________

Ok.  It's a week before Christmas.  I have to start now.

Cause 2010 is going to be MY year.

'08 & '09 had some amazing milestones... but overall were the hardest and least rewarding years of my life.

I lost myself.  I lost that person who WANTED it.  And GOT it EVERY SINGLE TIME.  No matter what that was.  Career... health.. men.. hahahah (Yeah.  Matt got the wrath of the GIVE IT TO ME Joey! ha.  In return.. he had a hot girlfriend!! hahahaha)

So cheers to the new year.  The start is now.

But this emotional eating bullshit that put me in this evil downspiral is OVER.

I can't wait to share with you my adventure to great health and happiness.

I need your help though.

I need YOUR accountability. 

Leave me a message giving me a DRILL SERGEANT order.

Get your fat a** out there, Joey!!!

I really believe the devil makes people fat.  Of course glutony is one of the 7 Deadly Sins.

Just like career... 'I don't have to live to work"

Just like food..... "I don't have to live to eat".

Work to live.

Eat to live.

_________________

xoxoxoxox

Joey

Well if you've seen me... you know.  My Butt. Is Not Skinny!!!!!

Damnit.

I have no excuse.  Other than um... 3 days after my last post- i was out of work from a radio station format flip where MY HUSBAND was the Program Director of the station that TOOK my job!

Yeah.  You think that sounds ugly?  Um.  Try living in my house the week after that!! haha.

I can 'smirk' about it now... cause its a month later -but it got UUUGGGGLLLLYYYY.

Needless to say... I get a handbag and a girl's trip out of it.  And you bet your ass I'm gonna do it! ha.

Ok... now that issue could have either gone one of 2 ways. 

A) I got depressed and ate till I was blue in the face.

B) I got depressed and DRANK till I was blue in the face.

C) I got depressed and didn't do any of the above.

Thankfully... it was C.  I lost a couple pounds...but I also didn't exercise.  So then as I pulled myself out of the pile of s*it.... and life returned to normal.  You know how that goes.  So does the weight.

So... with all that being said.

I am still an out of shape / over weight MOMMA.

Good Karma is coming my way... I just know it.

((And that karma might include a trip to the plastic surgeon!! hahaha))

JUST KIDDING.  I'm out of work-that means no $$ for lipo!! Or at least not now..

((snicker))

Wait.  Did I just say snickers???

Damnit.